Emma Joyce-10 months old and growing

Everyone this beautiful amazing person I have in my arms in this picture is that of my daughter-Emma Joyce Schmidt. She is 10 months old now and is the person who keeps me motivated to keep going. She is who I look forward to seeing when i get home from work and school everyday. I have never seen the light in a little girls face light up so bright the moment she see's me. I have truely never felt so loved in all my life.

Parenting is not at all what i had expected it to be. Yes i knew it was hard but never THIS hard. The adjusting to my changed life was hard because I cant accept change, i like for things to stay just the way they are-in their place and always to stay IN their place. Before i had emma i had no patience, now-a-days, thats what im all about is patience. Before I was just trying to concure it, now im just taming it. does that make sense? hmm probably not but thats ok.

Emma Joyce will be 1 years old on August 23, 2010. A YEAR!!! my baby is growing up so fast and there is nothing i can do. I have become a little bit more lenient with change because she is cahnging EVERYDAY. Today she took 2 steps, although may seem like nothing to some, its HUGE to me. My baby is so close to walking and I cant hold her back and say "NO! you stay right where you are and dont move" now i will be saying that in the future but as of right now..dont grow! stay my baby..stay here where you have a clean slate, a blank canvas..stay here were you still love the world.

Let me tell you, children-babies-toddlers...they are all amazing! their minds are so unique and new...everything is amazing to them and all they have is love. maybe thats our problem as adults..we have to many problems in our lives and to many negative emotions..We just dont care about the little things in life..the simple things like fireflies, or the moon and stars, the way water feels in your hands. babies,toddlers, and children all are amazed by these small things in their lives and are happy just to get a ball on a string..Every day when emma discovers something new i join her and love it too. Even if i dont care much about it the love she has for something so bland is again-Amazing.