Sometimes I would much rather walk alone. I have spent years and years trying to find that friend that everyone talks about. The friend that has seen you through your worse of days and the best of days. The one who is always welcomed in your home by your family because they have treated you the way a true friend should.

I will speak on behalf of alot of people when I say how frustrating it is giving someone everything you have and more and getting nothing in return. You begin to question yourself-whats wrong with me? Why do I give so much and they give nothing? Am I just meant to be alone for the rest of my life?

Those questions may make one depressed but we can not help but think about it. I am sure millions of men and women, boys and girls, have all thought of the main question-Whats wrong with me? We always end up blaming ourselves because the one person we love and do so much for has done no wrong. They themselves are the ones to blame-NOT you! People who care about others and give them all they can without complaining are never to blame.

Maybe that is God's way of putting you first in your thoughts before anyone else when you instantly wonder what is wrong with you. You know there is nothing wrong with you. You certainly have done nothing wrong.

All we want is someone to walk with us on our lives journey. We want to know that when we look to our right there is someone standing there preparing to catch us if we trip or be there for moral support through the way. That is a dream and a wish for alot of people who have spent most of their life alone wondering in the dark. This is reality, the truth that never seems to fail us. Reality, this is just the way it is, tells you to just move on by yourself. Make sure you got your ipod fully charged, put on your comfortable cloths, and button up that jacket you had hangin in the closet for so long. Put it on and go on your way. Your journey begins the moment you let go of all the people in your life who never cared the way you cared about them. This is your moment to walk with the only person you can trust with your deepest darkest secrets, accept their every flaw, dream of things way beyond their years. Now is your time to walk with- YOU!

grasp

I had his grasp. I could feel his palm sweating in mine and a held on for dear life. He was amazed by my strength and commitment I had when it came to holding his hand. Half a world away I grasped his hand as if he was standing right next to me. I never wanted to let go, for a while I had never had a grasp this good before. My hand was comfortable and I was happy right were I was. Consumed in my own bliss.
But I had an itch that I couldnt ignore. A haunting it was the longer I tried to ignore it. My other hand was full of my own lifes things. Why couldnt this itch just disappear and he see that I'm happy? Can't he just except that for once in my life that I have a firm hold on something that means everything and more to me? Hesitation over flowed my body, i removed my grasp, only to follow that one commandment rule. Took care of the itch and when I went back to grasp that perfect hand I had found it didn't feel quite the same.
He isnt amazed by my strength or my commitment, infact, he believes I lack them both. I want to let go, I've never hated a grasp so much in my life. I've changed everything about this amazing grasp I once had. That itch just had to jump in and remove me from my bliss. I'll attempt to hold his hand, but a sudden jerk the hand tells me I shouldnt.